cherryleong

Back from SEEC

2010-04-07T00:26:00.010+01:00

I'm just back from South England Easter Conference. How long have I not felt so blessed? It seems to be recalling some valuable fragments hidden deep in my memory blue sea. 5 years in London. Every fall has made me a better person. Every tear has strengthened me to face a bigger challenge. Every lost has told me how much I've gained. And of course, every smile, everyone I've met and everything I've had, have shaped me in a maturer and happier person.

I've decided to leave eventually. Something will start to fade when years and years pass by. But those I cherish will stay on my mind. This treasure box will be here until the world ends.

Yesterday I was wandering in Shoreditch. I've been here so long. How come I didn't notice such lovely place around me in the past? It looks so beautiful and peaceful when it's covered by heart warming sunshine. No more drunkies or weirdos. What I can see now is that I'm gonna miss this city. The city where I once fell down and now stand firm. And where I've found myself again.

CASTING CROWNS - WHO AM I

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.

New Year diary

2010-01-02T00:14:00.006Z

It's not really a diary at all. Just some random flashbacks.

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-24T12:52:00.000Z

Work & Friendship

2009-12-22T01:00:00.002Z

It's been the worst and most hectic weeks ever in London. Right, this is no kidding. I couldn't control my temper any more, especially in front of ridiculous situation. If a loaner wants to chop off my fingers, I'll beg him to keep my middle one. The only words I can think of are all PG now. Helplessness and anger burn me live. Fortunately, it's just work. Not my life. I even reached to a point that I nearly burst into tears when I picked up his phone. Well, imagine a rubber band is stretched to a breaking point. All of a sudden, it's a call from your closest person. A gentle smiling hi would be the greatest pamper to make you cry.

At that moment, the clock was frozen. And anything didn't matter any more...

Every time I'm frustrated, I'll just start questioning myself what I'm really looking for. Is it my career or just my job? Is it truly happy or just happier than before? Or you just think it's better than before?

I don't want to think about these questions. It's Christmas, for Christ's sake! Footpath is made of footprints. We gotta keep moving to make a way. Sometimes I feel like I'm stepping on the same path, pretending to be moving forward. But whatever it is, it is a way in the end.

I've lost two contacts recently. I know why for one person but don't know the other. Disappointed, sad and helpless. But I've done what I can do. Anyway, people's relationship is mysterious. The most beautiful thing you've had could be something hurting you. I used to treasure some "extraordinary" friends because it made my ordinary canvas more colourful. Special backgrounds, famous people, talented ones, etc. I think it's the same reason why people like meeting celebrities. The weak, invisible linkage between you, as a typical one of billions, and an extraordinary person, as 1 billionth of the population, would fool yourself that you're the same in this "special circle".

But now, I just realise what I need is not extraordinary people. I need someone who make me feel extraordinary.

This is what makes life special.

Recent work

2009-11-30T00:04:00.005Z

Renault x Channel4
Renault Loves Film
To be honest, I was quite pissed off by the technical problems in this project, which we shouldn't have, and which I was told that was unsolvable. I just don't believe that we can't sort out such a basic issue. Anyway, it's finished last month. I'll just let go...

Now working on 2 interesting Christmas cards. Plus several urgent mobile application projects. Better get these done before I dash to HK. Busy busy busy...

Funny me

2009-11-11T00:38:00.001Z

Did I just light up your day?

:)

Blog is back

2009-10-08T20:58:00.009+01:00

It's been more than 2 months since my last entry. The scientists said if you continue to do 1 thing for more than 360 days, it will become your habit. It seems like... it just takes 2 months to wipe off this habit. I don't wanna destroy what I've established here, so I promise myself that I'll pick it up again. (even tho the first entry is not so pleasant) :p

Well, there are a lot of happy things happening these months but what I wanna start with is something negative.

做野做到成條屍咁，唔識做果D又要硬做，我做creative ga, 點Q識寫programme ar.　叫咗請個關事嘅人又唔請，請埋D廢up當秘cup嘅人，卒之要我做埋D唔關事嘅野。你有冇見過人google D codes 嚟寫成個programme ar？我就係第一個咁做la. 如果唔係N年前學過小小pascal,　我死咗十年la.　不如叫個穿膠花阿嬸揸飛機! 又要high quality野, 又冇基本support, 咁即係唔畀空肚食早餐jer!

唔係我做果D又畀埋我做，人地唔負責任兼個腦中槍搞咗堆屎又要我執手尾，仲想屈係我嘅負責；喂，你係咪睇得太多big brother睇到智障ar?　我同你做嘅野9唔搭8點係我嘅負責ar?　我幫你手費事你畀人割喉仲想將所有野堆畀我！咁鍾意卸就食多D西梅溝菠蘿，瀉爆！

好挫敗好唔合理好唔開心，但係話畀自己聽唔好又轉工，唔可似逃避，要堅持！又話畀自己聽唔好成日怨，否則會真係為以自己好慘，況且冇人鍾意聽negative野。無路訴之下只好blog it. It's not that serious. It's just a relief. Hope the next time I blog will be something nice. :)

其實儲埋儲埋都想有人關心，但係叫男友問下自己有冇事又好冇癮兼冇意思。女人真係難服侍...　港女ar ma.

It's just my world.

2009-07-15T16:55:00.000+01:00

Bits and bobs

2009-06-27T21:31:00.011+01:00

My blog hasn't been updated for quite a while...again. There are some bits and pieces throughout the month. Don't know where to start.

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SERIOUS STUFF

May and June are very sensitive months to Chinese. 5.12 Earthquake then 6.4 Tianniman Square. I never like participating in political activities because they are always polarized that you can only stand on either extreme. I've only attended the memorial gathering for 6.4 twice in 20 years - 1989 and 2009. Never like being part of the biased western media nor "right-wing" activists. But this tragedy is worth a proper memorial.

6.4 gathering in London

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FUN

Mai stayed at my place for her half term. It's amazing to see a teenage girl growing up day by day. Yes, it's not a long way to be grown up for her now, yet, apparently, she's got some kiddie stuff inside! :D

Mai at Alton Towers (it's like Ocean Park in HK)

It was very exciting to see my old pals here. Ding Dong's family came to England again this year and we had a valuable chat over Spanish tapas. I still remember I was in junior high school when Miss Fung and Ding Dong were getting married. Wow... their daughter grows up so quickly! Has anyone pressed the fast forward button??

有朋自遠方來，不亦樂乎!

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COMPANY BIRHDAY

We celebrated our 10th birthday last week at No.4 Hamilton Place. Everyone loved the barbeque food and nice venue. Man, it does look porsche! Well, it's interesting to see people getting drunk. I was worried before the party started since I am rubbish at social or PR stuff. Talking to clients, having fun over a drink, etc. I'm sure I can do it well... but not in English! I thought I would be a total dumb on that night but surprisingly I had loads of fun.

Colleagues

Boss in lemon yellow

BBQ @ 4 Hamilton Place

Colleagues

On the way to our party

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MICHAEL JACKSON

We then moved to Hilton for a late drink after the party. At the same time, we got the breaking news of Michael Jackson. Seriously, everyone thought it's a joke or a foul at the beginning. Caroline bursted into tears when the tragic news was found to be real. I was with her in the bathroom. "I don't know why I'm crying. I don't even like him that much!" A funny thing is, there was another girl crying for MJ inside one of the toilets. We stared at each other and couldn't help laughing. The girl laughed, too when she came out of the toilet seeing Caroline's red eyes.

I didn't cry. I just felt strange and sad. Weird.... it seems to be something missing. Especially when someone dies at his "wrong" age. I'm sure most people in this generation would feel the same even if they are not big fans of MJ. Who hasn't listened to his music? This talented, legendary and tragic weirdo is part of our lives. He is definitely our historical icon and his death cut off this little link which used to hook up whoever loves him. His life was a mess. Perhaps it's a relief to him. Do you think he would be grabbing all the money earned from his forthcoming 50 concerts and hiding himself on an island spending the rest of his life with peace and happiness? Alright, that's way too cinematic. I now accept that he has indeed left us... forever.

May God bless his soul.

R.I.P.

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ME

I've never thought that I'm such a demanding person. I should admit to myself that I would feel empty, disappointed and unhappy when I can't see him on Friday and weekend. My brain warns me not to be demanding and to be more considerate in relationship, yet my heart tells me I'm bitter. This weekend, without sticking with him, I completed some design work for Jessica's wedding, did some reading and got plenty of leisure time chilling at home. Well, actually it's not too bad to have some personal space. More productive.

The phone rang. I flew to catch it, "Hey!" I smiled again and started to melt... damn it!

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MY RECENT FAVOURITE SONG

陳奕迅《沙龍》

對焦她的愛對慢了愛人會失去可愛
記低這感慨世事變有沒有將你淹蓋

只一格經典的偶遇已不再儘量框住目前大概

留住溫度速度溫柔和憤怒凝住今日怎樣好
捉緊生命濃度坦白流露感情和態度
留下浮光掠影飛舞

每張都罕有拍下過記住過好過擁有光圈愛漫遊
眼睛等色誘有人性鏡頭裡總有豐收

雖則那即影即有售罄菲林都已拆走但是衝動用完又再有

留住溫度速度溫柔和憤怒凝住今日怎樣好
捉緊生命濃度坦白流露感情和態度
停下時光靜止衰老

登高峯一秒得獎一秒再破紀錄的一秒
港灣晚燈山頂破曉摘下懷念記住美妙
升職那刻新婚那朝成為父母的一秒
要拍照的事可不少

音樂話劇詩詞和舞蹈揉合生命千樣好攝入相部
絢爛如電虛幻如霧哀愁和仰慕
遊樂人間活得好談何容易
拍着照片一路同步坦白流露感情和態度
其實人生並非虛耗
何來塵埃飛舞

New style

2009-06-08T18:21:00.002+01:00

Done an illustration for our client but they eventually went for a 3D model. Yes, it looks much better in an real 3D object. I'll keep this as my drawing book then cause it's quite different from my normal style.

LOL...

2009-06-02T23:41:00.004+01:00

Another dirty joke I saw on Facebook.

Tony (Status Update)
The b**tard who smashed the wing mirror off my car. Now i can't find a BMW garage who'll repair it before the weekend. Argh....!!!!!! I know he'll ride past me one day & he'll get my f**king fist in his FACE! Yes, violence is the answer......!

James at 11:33pm June 2 (Reply)
what about the 70,000 b*stards who have smashed your pie?.... xxx

Tony at 11:38pm June 2 (Reply)
you're rotten - dirty cow x

LOL... so gay.

國之將亡, 必有妖孽!!

2009-05-29T13:47:00.012+01:00

See how furious you are when someone charges you with something that should be her own responsibility? It's like a cleaner asking you the reason why you didn't empty the trash.

See how you feel injustice when you've sent all the materials to someone for approval but she goes, "i've never seen this before"? It's like you've paid the rent but your landlord accuses you of owing her a whole year money.

See how ridiculous it is to spend hours to understand 2 hundred words? It's like drawing tables and doing complicated equations to find out the sum of 2 and 3.

I would say, "this is horrible!"
Why do people always think they are special and others are idiots? Only those who have the guts to admit their own mistakes can be somebody in society.

人蠢，最多怪你阿媽。（ok...我自問不是聰明得那裡）
人懶，最多做埋你果份。
推卸責任，最多畀個字你！
又蠢又懶兼推卸責任唔忍衰仲要係高級過你，真係幫你唔倒。
兩個字：極品!
再嚟兩個字：妖孽！

False alarm

2009-05-20T21:39:00.011+01:00

"No matter what, could you tell me the result?", said Kennis.

"Sure. Actually they'll probably shut my mouth by transferring me to have mammogram which takes ages to get the real result. I'll probably be dead by then. LOL... kidding. Don't worry." I was a bit anxious, to be honest, but her care made me warm. Seriously I needed some support though I would never initially ask for it.

"Have you told your family?" she went.

"Of course not. I don't even know what it is." It's my family's tradition to sweep all crappy worries under the bed. I felt guilty to let her worry about me on her birthday. She's pretty experienced in this aspect. That's why she asked me for so many details and she's utterly worried.

Two weeks before I went to the doctor, I pictured many different possible scenes in my head. Life is never easy. There are always something eating you or dragging you away from your happy bath ALL the time. However, like I said, sometimes the beauty of one thing is its limitation. Every life has an expiry date, so it's precious like spring flowers, like sunset, like fireworks. It never gets stronger without falling down for a hundred times.

Friday night, I was a bit stressed out by different things from work, the flat and other things. And health, of course. I was hoping for something. Something that could sooth me a little bit. I knew he had been busy all day long and felt extremely tired. And I of course didn't want to be an unreasonable girlfriend to drag him out from a city where's miles away from London.

On the way home, a mix of paranoia, loneliness, helplessness and imbalance hormones brought a tear in my eyes. I felt cold and sad... watching people walking past the lonely me, watching the sun going down below the horizon...

"What if I die?"
Couldn't imagine how much pain I would bring to my family...
Couldn't imagine how I would ask him to find a new girl and live happily...
Couldn't imagine ...

HALT ~~~~~~~ !!!!!!!!!!!

The story stops here... because today the doctor said "I'm quite sure it's just normal tissues." "But it's firmer than other lumps, Dr." I replied. He went on, "yes, but it's normal."

"No need to scan?"

"No."

"What about this one??"

"It's a cyst under your skin which is quite common."

"No need to remove?"

"No."

I smiled. "But you have to self-check it regularly for sure." he added.

Right, thank God for letting me live longer! And all my ridiculous sci-fi imagination is gone now. :p Silly...

SO GOOD TO BE ALIVE!

Play!

2009-05-18T21:51:00.004+01:00

ORM Play is now live!

http://play.ormlondon.com/

This experimental baby is our company's new playground. Have fun with it and make a prediction here! :)

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We did a project for Discovery which involved "Adventurous survival things" recently. We ended up ordering a lot of eatable insects... gosh... I ate a real grasshopper!! It's curry flavour by the way...

See us eat a grasshopper!

gross...

Sandwiched (cont') and stuff

2009-05-18T20:58:00.003+01:00

It's been such a long period of time to write again. I know I know... It's not about business. It's all about laziness... Or, to be honest, it's about moodiness! I like drawing and writing but only when I'm in the mood.

Basically, the incident in the flat is somehow sorted now. And, our new flat mate has already moved in! She's a sweet Korean girl, who also goes go to christian church! We've chatted a few times and guess we should get on quite well. The most important thing is that another flat mate of mine likes her. That's the key you know. A balanced triangle keeps the house happy and less troubles. I don't wanna be sandwiched again, especially after work.

A new page of my life. :D

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What hit a simple woman like a bullet into her heart?

when a man shares his daily happenings with her.
when a man is willing to spend a simple day over the simplest tea under the most beautiful sun.
when a man is eager to bring her to his parents.
when a man cares about her living environment more than his.
when a man gets her favourite snacks.
when a man pretends to ignore but he remembers what she needs.
when a man sees her smile, and smiles.

when a man says, "you're mine."

Sandwiched (TBC)

2009-05-01T17:35:00.002+01:00

Something happened in our flat recently which created a little bit tension between my flat mates. Yes, 2 flat mates....and unfortunately I'm in the middle. Actually hidden tension between them has been here in the house for ages. I think it's just a matter of different styles of living. But a catalytic incident provoked the ultimate battle before one of them moves out. Well, she's moving out not because of this incident but prolonged dissatisfaction on the way they get on with each other.

It's a difficult situation for me to be sandwiched... anyway, it's half sorted now. I just don't understand why I should waste so much time on silly little things.

Crap...

Recent Drawings

2009-04-16T17:53:00.004+01:00

2 posters on our office's backdoor...

What happened to our communication during the conference...

I love this song 'From Ashes to Beauty'

The spirit of the sovereign Lord
Is on me now
To love, to speak, to heal, to preach
The spirit of the sovereign Lord is on me now
Giving life

You turn ashes to beauty
Mourning to dancing
Anguish to songs of praise

Pour Your spirit over me
Let Your love rain down
Would You take these hands of mine and use me
Pour Your spirit over me
Let Your love rain down
Would You take these feet of mine and lead me

The spirit of the sovereign Lord is on me now
To go, to free, to give, to feed
The spirit of the sovereign Lord is on me now
Spreading love

You lead me to the poor
That’s where You are
You lead me to the weak
That’s where You are
You lead me to the lost
That’s where You are
Lord I want to be
Where You are

I went to the South England Easter Conference last week. It's a 5-day christian camp and we had a hectic holiday since we are the host this year. 200 youngsters from differect churches in South England, man! So much to do... I'll update the details later. :)

La Maison en Petits Cubes

2009-04-08T16:34:00.001+01:00

Got this link from Ah Yeung. Absolutely stunning. I nearly got tears when I flash back some memories....

La Maison en Petits Cubes (Part 1 of 2)

La Maison en Petits Cubes (Part 2 of 2)

Posters on the backdoor

2009-04-05T21:58:00.002+01:00

We are re-branding our company recently. I was asked to change the backdoor posters (to block the windows of our backdoor) and I came up with such thing.

Well, it's a bit over the top or trying too hard to be clever so I'll do another proper illustration instead. But it's no harm to share here. :)

LOL

2009-04-02T13:56:00.003+01:00

I listened to Radio 903 this morning and couldn't help laughing when the DJs talked about a weird news...

A man from Mainland China carved a sentence in a famous stone in Taiwan who then got a £300 fine. I don't understand why it valued a corner on newspaper actually but it did light up my day! LOL... tears...

It said, "中國神州李根大".

(i'm rolling on the floor)

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You know what? I feel like talking to myself, hearing my echo... only echo...

Random Drawings

2009-04-01T21:58:00.003+01:00

I'm very happy to have some spare time to draw again! Yay!

Happy Lonely Planet

Politics

Relationship

G20

Running out of tissue....

The road from London Bridge (my workplace) to Liverpool Street (my living place) were all blocked for the anti-G20 protest. I got these pictures when I was walking home. :) They were like having a big party with tents and music!

all random

2009-03-10T23:08:00.005Z

Feeling emotional these days. Not because I've lost my entire saving in HSBC's stocks (it did make me unhappy for an hour). Not because of women problems. I don't know what it is... eating me, suffocating me and engulfing my whole. Maybe it's just about the disappointment in the surrounding world. A real twisted world. Midlife crisis is an excusing term to justify my moaning. Crap... it's not even my midlife yet!

I smell the rotting souls. I see the shadow of paws. I shoulder the sinking human dignity. Nightmares are chasing us ... until the edge of the Earth.

Suddenly, I miss the Little Prince. I'm wondering if he's already back to B612?

Pong's lyrics is still my favourite. So dark. So true. So irresistible.
I combine those touching lines together and come up with a conclusion:
若世人把我遺忘, 便用最天真的心, 去替生命留痕...

躺於這和暖睡床叫世人把我遺忘
不想對人再奢望漸忘掉屋外盛況
被窩之中躺呀躺究竟怎麼不妥當
懶得起身觀看今天境況知道更不安
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知己失散過過客有幾多
更有勇士最終變做嘍囉
更需要一起抵抗用最天真的心
悠然面對現實是何其無助
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再別怕共寂寞同行
何妨脫下那墨鏡高調前行
你與我小得好比微塵
棲身這亂世之內浮沉
沿途各自上路去替生命留痕

extracted from 藍奕邦's lyrics

Restart blogging

2009-03-05T22:47:00.003Z

Well... I always wanted to write my blog in the most relaxing time and place but life never let me. So it just ended up with nothing updated on my page.

This line is a press button to restart blogging. At least there's something here until I'm fully juiced up to write a proper one again :p. Okay... don't say that I stop writing after having a relationship. I'm just too lazy!

Happy New Year!

2009-01-02T15:02:00.004Z

Good to have a new start. :) WIsh everyone a wonderful year in 2009!

heehee.... can't believe that I've made this... I've only knitted 3 times in my life. 1 was for my needle work class (and i nearly failed). Another one was just done the half way...years ago. And this one is not for class work, not for anything i'm required to do ....

Gosh.... it's just not my stuff.... not like me...

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

2008-12-27T23:47:00.003Z

We didn't have a white Christmas this year. It just rarely snows in December. But still, London looks beautiful ...

Our gathering at Mok C's place

Actually this is our normal mode.....

New characters for our art project :D

2008-12-24T12:50:00.002Z

AT last, we've started our company art project for 2009... :D

2008-12-16T16:00:00.005Z

I've encountered many weirdos in this city and here I came across again.

I was taking a bus on the way to Maggie' place on sat...
I sat on the upper deck listening to my ipod, watching the Christmasty decor through the window...

A guy sitting in front of me turned around, "sorry... i'm just praying".

I didn't hear him quite well cause I was on my earphones.
"It's alright. I didn't hear it anyway." Then I put my earphones on again. I wanted to ask if he's a christian. This guy turned and said the same thing again... I felt strange and went, "that's ok..."

I found him very strange cause he said "im just praying with myself" in the end. Why "with myself"??

After 5 seconds, my eyeballs nearly rolled out... I saw him playing with his "private part" on the seat!!! Holy crap! I started to realise that he actually said, "playing" not "praying"!!!

PG: sensitive encrypted scene below!

£$^%&*(&^%!!!!! What the hell was he doing?? "Are you not upset?" he said. (Crap...how dare him!!) "Yes, I'm upset." I raised my voice with rage, "I'M REALLY UPSET AND IF YOU KEEP DOING THIS I WILL CALL THE POLICE!!!" The weirdo then got off the bus in the next stop...

He just pissed me off. Imagine someone masturbating on the bus in front of you. Hey don't ask me why I could see his xxxx behind the seat. (answer: he's a black man so think about it) What a pathetic wanker!!

Well, I'm not really angry... it's funny when I think back cause I mistook his "playing" as "praying"! LOL... It went to the opposite!!!

Recent nice animations

2008-12-08T14:11:00.008Z

Wicked animation

Dick Annegarn "Soleil du soir" (par Michel Gondry)

Dick Annegarn "Soleil du soir" (par Michel Gondry)
Uploaded by totoutard

I love this art direction

Zeitguised - Perpetics

Nexus's new piece :)

Nexus - Seed

Studio AKA's beautiful short. I'm loving it.

Studio AKA - Grant Orchards ‘Recycling’ for Disney

Well the Stink/Psyop's work for Audi "Synchronised" is not an animation but... This is madness!!!!

Audi "Synchronised"

Some xmas characters

2008-12-04T15:51:00.005Z

Got some characters for xmas... not sure if i can finish that but... i'll try. :)

Not for christmas but ....just wanna do a funny drawing for a very annoying person :p Now I'm feeling better. LOL.....

really ticked off....

My recent days are like this..... :)

3 songs

2008-11-25T01:34:00.007Z

Adele - Hometown Glory

Timbaland - Apologize (feat. One Republic)

林憶蓮 - 再見悲哀

why 3?

夜寒雜記

2008-11-23T01:52:00.001Z

寒星轉，日影移，心，隨然悸動。
一夜涙流成河，諒察今是耶？即或緬懷昨非耶？
一夜侃侃舉杯，余吾兩忘，樂此不疲。
千言成千斤；促膝交神，默然目黑炯炯，無語，無奈，刺心矣！疚耶？感耶？
來來回回，兩岸之間，相見而不相連；盡處見俱傷，終為無有，皆虛矣！
昨已殆然？今夕始已？

瘦田冇人耕，耕開有人爭...

2008-11-22T03:19:00.003Z

唔係呢，好邪呢...近排真係食錯藥....................

My first chaotic month

2008-11-18T21:56:00.004Z

I haven't updated my blog for ages.... since I started to work at Or-media. Cause I've been so ~~~ busy. Well, the workload is obviously heavier than before but it's not the main reason why I'm now having a messy life. This is some update.

Work

1st week : exciting and chaotic
2nd week : 'we are gonna change our company name". Well, sounds scary but we are gonna rebrand the company and do an art project. isn't it amazing?
3rd week : settling in. trying to be more talkative (you know i'm so dumb at work.... can hardly respond in an English environment)...
4th week : our development team is axed. man, that's shocking....

Who said we were far away from financial crisis?? Can you feel the turmoil in person? Well, I'm not worried. Just a little bit unclear about what's going on and what my role is going to be. I always blamed to have a boring role in the past but this one seems a bit too rollercoaster... Human beings are never satisfied. hahaha.... Anyway, let's see. At least I have a job, right? I just hope I'll have more time for my personal art project. I've dumped it in a dark corner for ages......

Life

1. Our dearest pastor got cancer and had an operation this week. This is the 1st time I saw how we all bind together in one family to pray for 1 thing. We really hope that he will be healed.... Weird... I have never noticed how much we love our family.

2. Got an extremely bad news from my ex-colleague. His wife got depression after giving birth to her first child and committed suicide a few days ago. Can't imagine how painful my friend is... Life is such a fragile thing that you can never get hold of... Please be strong...

3. 1 friend got divorced.

Health

I hurt my neck in shower and nearly passed out in the bathroom. Aww...... it's still hurting, man!!!! I'm just too old.........

Relationship Stuff

No relationship at all..... but in the midst of a foggy forest.

Friendship

You should know how hard it is to find some sort of intellectual engagement among friends when you are a well grown up? I can thank no more to get 2 peers recently who can actually share some deep conversations like brother and sister. Thank Gladys and Stephen. :) It's just incredible to be understood before you talk.

Family

Thank God my family is here living healthily. I love them. and I love them more after going through my chaotic month.

Feeling

People always think they still have time when they've already got "something" in hand. But they treasure it much more when "something" has an expiry date....

What is something? An object? A memory? Or a person? Whatever it is. Can we just treasure it, love it when it has not yet got an expiry date?

Last 2 projects

2008-11-18T21:28:00.005Z

The last 2 projects I did at Glue.

Client: Oasis, Coca Cola Ltd.
Campaign: Cactus Kid - Cactus Kid and Cactus Girl, who don't like to drink water, ran away from home. Cactus Girl's mum called the police to catch them and set up a network called "mothers against cactus kid (MACK)" to gather all mothers to fight against Cactus Kid. We did several fake "cheap taste" website for the so-called US police department and MACK. It's just way too surreal and hilarious! Can you imagine an American teenage girl on her MySpace is actually a very bored Chinese girl behind? See? Advertisers are scandalous!!! :p Like Mother's idea, though the message is not clearly delivered....

Official RunCactusKidRun.com

Police site - FindCactusKid.com

Mothers Against Cactus Kid

Cactus Girl's MySpace page

The restaurant Cactus Kid and Cactus Girl have been on their run

The motel Cactus Kid and Cactus Girl have been on their run

Client: Barclay
Project: Website of Barclaycard Breathe
It's not an amazing site, but, for an html website (seriously no flash!), it's already not bad. I was really happy that I could do the design and animation in my last 2 months. It's a good project anyway. Thank you, my teammates! :) Finally, it's live this week! yay!

http://www.barclaycardbreathe.co.uk/

Office

2008-11-03T00:11:00.012Z

Well, Pauline's got a new boss. He's obviously nothing better than the previous one, who is also a 100% jerk. Her vivid description just made me laugh!! LOL... unlucky her...

P : I've been writing a large paragraph to prove that I should get "outstanding" instead of "very efficient" in my appraisal.
C : Why? How can you bargain with your boss?
P : I even carried a pair of bloody engineer shoes on the way back. I'm his slave!!! Was it far beyond my duty? So I'm not just very efficient. It should be outstanding!
C : Well... it's way too much, man.... You did carry his shoes??
C : But...
C : if he's a handicapped....
C : then you shouldn't be too harsh. (you should fight for a description like "extremely caring for special needs...")

P : My new boss is the same shit. Again, all kinds of so-called engineers who get stuck in the middle, and can't take themselves further, will fall into this useless PR position, which enables them to do nothing but blaming. And of course, sweeping all shits under others' table.
C : LOL... hey easy... only losers are pathetic like this. (blah blah blah.... like 2 bitchy women gossiping haha)

Right. I do think there are many people, who are harsh to the others, are actually the most pathetic losers. They are frustrated and helpless in reality so they try to transfer this negative emotion to people around them. That's what makes them stay in the same unhappy situation forever. So, for all fellows who have to temporarily work with this type of people, don't be mad. You should save more energy for your own duties and some other constructive things. (For all fellows who have to work not "temporarily" with them, congratulations! You can't do anything at all. :p) Just because of those negative ones, we have to make the world a lot better and positive. (at least.... less worse. haha...)

heehee...I'm not just talking about work. It happens in all social circles. Work, school, peer groups, church, etc. What the most important thing is that we know what we are doing and what it is for. If a loser is pointing finger at you, heads down to work, or give one finger back to him / her. Our world won't sop just because one's world has stopped.

A cup of Japanese tea and a bowl of blueberries...

2008-11-02T01:27:00.009Z

A cup of Japanese tea and a bowl of blueberries... That's what I'm having in my room now. After some hectic weeks and emotional days, my warm bed and a few minutes of absolutely peaceful private space for myself are what I miss most. My new job is exciting and a bit brain exhausting. And these 2 weeks I've got a guest in my room....so I've slept on the floor for 2 weeks which is quite harsh to me now... plus the noise made by those crazy people downstairs celebrating Halloween and Bond Fire.... my soul is just torn apart.

Memories of these weeks start to flash back when I close my eyes.

Got some bad news from Pastor Lau a few weeks ago. Life and death become an issue to me again. When you are having a busy life, worrying about this and rushing for that, you won't realize how precious to have a new day and how graceful you can breath. May the greatest love, strength and peace be with him.

Sometimes, there is something you have to do right now, otherwise, you will never know whether you can still do it after the first chance. Treasure everything we have.

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At last, we talked. Perhaps we forgot how we used to communicate. Perhaps our wounds still pulled us back. Perhaps ... we just cared too much ... Anyway, it's good to be around you. Even only the passers-by did the talking.

You didn't bring up the issue as I imagined. Well, I was a bit pissed off. Why can't we go straight to the issue and sort it out? But... perhaps it may be the best way to leave it now. Feels like I've wasted your time for more than a year. If I keep struggling and struggling, it will be just unfair to you. I'm just a mess... who is never clear about things.

"Sorry." was just too heavy to receive. A piece of paper was slitting my heart followed by a fist grabbing it and twisting it tight when you said so.

No. I owe you loads. I do mean it.

如果我是一所籠子，那麼我唯一要做的就是打開一道門，讓你飛往真正屬於自己的地方...　始終，人總不能一輩子住在籠子裡, 對嗎? And yes, I believe you can fly.

All the best with you.

My London Bus

2008-11-02T01:04:00.003Z

Frustration and disappointment tell me that I've lost the direction. I find the animation I'm working on is no longer interesting. It's just too far away from my original thought. The click I got in my head in the first second. And then it's gone.

I talked to Esti and she gave me some very constructive advice. Thanks for her encouragement. I won't give up so soon. I've decided to ignore the deadline of IFVA cause it's no point to jump to an end product for a competition if it's not the best I can give. Let it go. Now my biggest mission is to finish my animation that I at least feel satisfied and dare to share with friends for fun. Okay... it's going very slowly since I always caught up by the daily work and church activities. But it's a good restart anyway. It's not called "the London Bus Driver" but "The London Bus". Think it would widen the scope of whatever I want to illustrate. I will work hard!!!! :D

Bus driver and the passengers.

To be understood as to understand

2008-10-21T00:02:00.006+01:00

"Make me a channel of your peace. Where there is hatred, let me bring your love. Where there is injury, your Pardon, Lord, and where there's doubt, true faith in you.

Make me a channel of your peace. Where ther's despair in life, let me bring hope. Where there is darkness, only light, and where there's sadness ever joy.

O Master, grant that I may never seek so much to be consoled as to console, to be understood as to understand, to be loved, as to love, with all my soul.

Make me a channel of your peace. It is in pardoning that we are pardoned. In giving of ourselves that we receive, and in dying that we're born to eternal life."

I've never felt so moved by the lyrics though I've been singing this song since secondary school. Now I really need to knee down and let it touch my deepest heart. When one is hurt, one would be probably looking at his/her wound and checking how deep he/she is injured, however, one would never head up and see how deep his/her neighbour gets hurt at the same time. Human beings are selfish. I've never realised how egocentric I am until this song again wandered in my head tonight. Being ignored is terrible. Avoiding people is the same dreadful. I was hoping to be understood and cared but actually I should be the one who gives. Like the lyrics, "to be consoled as to console, to be understood as to understand, to be loved, as to love". Should get out of the trap of being the spotlight of a tragedy now... Learn to be patient, learn to understand, learn to love. :)

Work in Progress

2008-10-19T23:23:00.003+01:00

Well.... It takes me ages to start my new animation....and I haven't got a time to finish it yet....booooooo...... But I'm really happy to work on my own stuff. It's my interest, my talent and my desire!!!! Happy happy dayzzzzzzzzzzz!

Only a few backgrounds at the moment..... lazy lazy me....

Broken

2008-10-19T22:54:00.005+01:00

'Su and I fight a lot. You know we "hate" each other, yea? But we still talk to each other and we share a lot. Why do you both never talk?', said J with an innocently worried face.

I patted him on his shoulder, smiling and looking into his eyes. His eyes were apparently waiting for an answer. I said nothing but nodding. I turned around seeking a place to soften my sudden explosive emotions triggered by his question. Two little drops were frozen on my lower eyelids... I was glad everyone was busy at that time otherwise I would screwed things up in a happy crowd.

Sitting on the bus on the way back home, I saw my exhausted reflection on the window. They finally defrosted and dropped.

Thousands of question marks slap my face one by one. If it's a nightmare, I wish someone could wake me up. If it's a joke, I wish I could have a soulless laugh. How about the feeling that you are a precious flower right now but become less than rubbish in the next minute?

I wish I could be angry. But now I'm just broken. Yes, I'm broken...

First week

2008-10-19T00:10:00.007+01:00

I have never thought that my first week at work would be such stacked. It's a good sign though. Colleagues are nice. CD is hilarious. Working environment is comfortable. We are really tiny but I always keep this motto in mind, "small team, big heart".

It's a challenge to me because I'm more like a creative now, though I still do design work. Like the working format that we could discuss together, explore together and do it from scratch. Well, another challenge is that my new company is purely British, unlike Glue which consists of different Europeans. No big difference except I have no companions to speak crappy English with me.... feeling stressed sometimes.

I don't mind working late but I just hope that I'll have more time to figure out sort of "big ideas" and do real nice design. Seriously, a one-day-job can never bring good stuff. I'm still very picky on design. If we can do better, why should we brake because of the time limit?

Thank Stephen for those encouraging words, prayers and guidance.
Thank Gabs and Bianca for the morning text so I got a bit juiced up before getting started.
Thank Pauline and Raman for the incredible, distant support!!
Thank God for giving me new challenge!

I still miss Glue.... anyway, at least I'm moving on now. :)

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Gladys and I rushed to see Zorro on Thursday after work. Utterly stunning and FANTASTIC Flamenco!!!!!!!!!!!! A must-see cheering musical!!

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I was standing in the cold, watching your avoidance. Did I do something wrong? Are you still mad at me? Or my unnecessary sarcasm just makes you hate me? Laughters can no longer hide my shivering. I looked stupid and cheap, trying to break the ice but not even getting a glance in return. I was invisible, staring in distant until your car blended in with the traffic lights without saying a bye... until my eyes went red...

If you don't, why did you say you do?
If I've decided to let go, why am I still wandering at the door?

從來未發生

2008-10-10T00:26:00.008+01:00

曾認為走過的一段寃枉路也是種緣份。
當脆弱的心因時間磨蝕而飄散，才意識到這份冀盼巳屬過去式。

淚水，是還殘留著什麼，是種壓抑，還只是種遺憾？

要發生的從來未發生，想發生的不會再發生。蹉跎了的原來不是蹉跎，是種經過罷。

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Just got a warm text from a friend. The above content seems to make friends worried.... Sorry. I'm totally fine. I just have a very unclear mind of what I 'm thinking. I don't have a clue what's happening to me and around me. Stuff like that. I change every day so it's better for me to give it a break now....

Well, I will start working in a new place soon. So.... focus!!! lol... that would really cheer me up!!

Longleat Safari

2008-10-09T00:09:00.003+01:00

Woohoo!!!!!!!

My leaving presents

2008-10-08T23:46:00.005+01:00

Thank God for giving me such lovely colleagues. Thank God for the valuable friendship and all unique memories that I will never forget. Thanks all Gluers for being with me for 2 years. I can thank no more..... No words.... not even tears can express my deepest gratitude and happiness.

Goodbye, my friends! I'll see you around anyway! Haha.... I'm a Shoreditch girl.

Leaving card

Art shop Coupons - i'll turn it into my new animation!!!! :D

A cute cushion to keep me warm...

illustration books!!! OMG............. they know me well!!!

DIY soft toy

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I've just started to make some hand craft for my new animation....but my progress is toooooooooooo slow........

Gluers...........

2008-09-30T19:00:00.007+01:00

I got so many gifts and lovely hugs from my dearest colleagues..... ah.... what an emotional day! I've thought about so many things since I handed in my notice. Looking back in these 2 years..... Oh man, it's not easy to stand here...

I didn't have much to give so I just left this tiny book to them...

Old school days......

2008-09-25T00:33:00.010+01:00

Funny chat about Chinese literature

Well I should say, we were like 3 oldies sitting around in a park, talking about everything in war times...

Bianca, Pauluce and I had a crazy Chinese literature night at a Korean restaurant. It's just incredible to talk about all the Chinese readings we had for Cert-level, A-level and even before our 3rd form!! How many painful times we had to memorize ancient Chinese poems and history in the past have become crazy joy on our dining table... Gosh... we mixed up part of the history with TVB dramas! ah... why do we have such a long and complicated history? and why did we have such difficult ancient characters and writings which we can hardly understand today but need to take exams for? My brain is tiny... LOL.... but seriously it's great fun to read it out again. I really appreciate our great poets' beautiful poetry. So precise. So deep. So passionate.

During our discussion, we didn't remember the author of 也許. There were 3 modern poems in a chapter, 《也許》,《再別康橋》and《聽陳雷士的琴箏》. We were in a great pain that we couldn't speak out his name! It's on our lips... A more interesting thing was, after we parted, Bianca called us to say, "I got it!!! It's 聞一多!!"

...and my heart went with exclamation, "Oh my sweet Lord 聞一多!!" A Really bad gag I know.... Crazy days...........

Anyone still remember 刨丁解牛, 岳陽樓記, 兵車行, 將進酒, 弔古戰場文, 水的希望, 人生的意義，陋室銘，竹林深處人家, etc.? I just know this one:

"唧唧复唧唧，木蘭著住三點式, 跳落泳池游蛙式，點知學極都唔識."
That's what Miss Ma taught me. LOL...

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Confused

The problem is being solved. (or sorted already? don't know...) I did pay for my silliness but think it's never enough. I'm still confused cause you just said something confusing. Sometimes I really doubt that I'm suffering form paranoia for I like to think too much and make up my own story, with denial of reality...

I'm afraid of mistaking it because it's never clear, because I'm stupid and because I'm afraid of being a loser.

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Maddi

Maddi has gone back to Tokyo for good. We used to study together, live together and laugh together.

We hugged each other, avoiding tears dropping from our red eyes before she took the cab to Heathrow. Bye..... But hey! I'm gonna have a cup of tea with her some time next year! Thank God for the friendship. It should be mush harsher for her to leave a city where her dreams and friends are and a place she's consolidated her understanding of herself for more than 5 years.

All the best! x

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a week to go.... "say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in...."

Any Other World

2008-09-20T00:57:00.000+01:00

"Any Other World" - Mika

In any other world
You could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl
Into broken remnants

Smile like you mean it
And let yourself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

I tried to live alone
But lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am
I had to give up my defences

So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in...

2 years

2008-09-18T23:15:00.016+01:00

2 YEARS

Feeling strange when I gave my notice... I've been in this company for nearly 2 years with millions of emotions. I'm gonna miss all the talented and friendly people there... is it a relief? sadness? excitement? a mix of all kinds? My tears don't come from happiness, regret or depression. They come from the unique ambiguity which is difficult to explain. I need some time to digest, accumulate before I can consolidate my feel.... :p One thing for sure is that, I have to move on. I need a new sky....

Thank God for being my light all the time.

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BOOKS

I'm reading 2 books at the moment. Um... quite outdated really... anyway...

1. What got you here won't get you there
- a detailed psychological analysis on people in senior/management level who can't be more successful because of some specific traits. (some points are well understood by the whole world without speaking out ... but it's nice to review it in a well-structured report. quite inspiring)
2. The God Delusion
- you can call it anti-Christ, a book for atheists, etc. pretty aggressive arguments which (i think) unrelated to the core of Christianity. But it raises a lot of interesting questions about God. It helps me question what I truly believe and what other possibilities the universe can have. Trying to finish it and get some inspirations...

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GIFTS

Got a pair of new shinny trainers ... surprisingly. Started to use my new phone this week... So sweet. I just think I've got too many gifts that I don't deserve. I'm feeling touched and embarrassed actually. Maybe it's just me thinking too much and too complicated. Too many things flashing back, too much stuff pounding in... I was resting my soft limbs in bed, staring at the ceiling until my mind gone too messed up and gave it a rest at last......

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I always long for intellectual conversations among friends. Sometimes, I really doubt whether my friends here would find my expectation too silly, too serious, or even too out of place. Sometimes, I don't even know if it's too hard to find the same channel or it's just me having doors shut. I can't do or I don't want to?

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I'm feeling a bit guilty now that I've just hurt a friend. Here's the background. I hate people talking at the back without sincerely let your friend know what you really think. Okay if you don't talk to him/her directly, I'll do and fix it! I thought I was helping a friend by speaking out what others might think so as to improve the relationship among all friends. But I'm too naive ... The point I stated is not even important ... and I screwed it up. Why am I always like this? Pointing out something I don't really mind but exaggerated by others and trying to be a stupid fixer?! Selective honesty is kind of wisdom. Well, I just don't have to point out everything. Should let people breath instead... I'm learning ... I'm learning ...

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LEHMAN, MERRILLLYNCH AND AIG

"Turmoil sends US stocks tumbling" That's the headline of BBC. Apparently, it's more than the US. Hong Kong is one of the most hazardous places. I don't know much about finance though... I can only see a big shift of power from nations to nations, a new battlefield changing from monopoly to oligopoly and a great flow of money from 1 sector to another. The world is changing indeed (I'm not talking about finance only). When one force diminishes, it's torn apart or broken into pieces, growing many different new forces. When they are growing too big, the strongest force would engulf the others, forming one new force. Then it will diminish again.... like a cycle, isn't it?

Anyway, danger and opportunity are the flip sides of the same coin, yea?

Random illustrations

2008-08-21T14:45:00.002+01:00

These were done for Nokia but they didn't use it in the end. I like random drawings anyway. :)

輸不起的, 不是劉翔, 是我們十三億中國人

2008-08-21T00:53:00.016+01:00

I've been hesitating to write something about Liu Xiang cause, like many Chinese, my emotion is pretty complicated.

I would say, " 輸不起的, 不是劉翔, 是我們十三億中國人。" (Liu is not a loser. We 1.3 billions of Chinese are.)

When everyone in the world was fascinated by the magical beauty given by Beijing in the opening ceremony, all Chinese standing in front of the tv felt deeply touched and proud of our mother country - China. We've waited for this injured dragon to fly again for ages and now it's flying! Then the news went to the miming girl, and now Liu Xiang... I ask myself, "are we really proud of it?"

In Liu's case, I've never understood how Chinese people treat him. I will never do. We brought him to the foremost superstar level, worship him, give tones of pressure on him, and now push him away, step on him because he's injured? I'm like watching a ridiculous political and racial slapstick! Well, to the hell with whatever reasons he decided to quit. His injury was too serious? He's too stressed? His injury was really bad to hinder him from getting a gold medal so his crew designed a "good" way to step down? WHATEVER! He's the one who knows his body the best. Why can't he make a decision that he thinks it's the best? An arrogant and brilliant athlete like Liu would not give up any chances to compete. Which country would blame the injured or even attack him like this? Look at the injured Japanese runner! People would only feel pity for her an encourage her. Now China is like Columbia which a wonderful footballer got killed just because he missed a fatal goal in the World Cup. We take it too seriously and we are giving him burden from 13 billions of people because track-and-field is China's weakness and he's the only hope and his success proves that China is good and powerful in EVERY aspect? Like the Joker said, "Why so serious?"

And why did 60% of the audience leave the stadium after he had quitted? Yea.... we are powerful nation and we show no respect to the others? Where's the olympics spirit?

Competitions are rather individualistic. It's a global game for all global people to compete with each other in a fair system. When did nationalism cross overhead this valuable spirit? Sadly, the miming girl and Liu Xiang are sacrificed in this face-saving culture.

People need a show-off because they are not good enough. Like, real strong people would never work hard to prove they are strong.

I think we've got enough show-off now. If we still want to prove how bright we are, how powerful our country is and how rich our people are, then no matter how brilliant the show is, I would say "NO! I DON'T NEED IT!" Because we are not real good. I thought we were. But we aren't. It's just like a golden skin with rotten heart, resulting from economic growth being way too faster than civilization.

中國富強，心靈卻脆弱。為大國，堅持面子，卻放棄了胸襟。

Ngor ngor ngor ...

2008-08-15T10:17:00.000+01:00

Thread from Sky

2008-08-14T16:36:00.003+01:00

Kids and their prayers

2008-08-12T23:05:00.006+01:00

I'm rolling on the floor......

One World One Dream

2008-08-09T22:13:00.008+01:00

I watched the Beijing Olympics Opening with colleagues in the office. 4 genuinely amazing hours! I didn't believe my eyes. We all were surprised by incredible performance of every single section of the ceremony. I'm glad my colleagues appreciated that. No lies. It's drop-dead gorgeous.

After a series of hazards and barriers, we finally made it. Speechless screams and tears come out from all Chinese hearts because this Olympics not only means the unity of all countries but also a great relief of years and years of psychological, racial complex. We know the government have spent a whole lot and we understand we take it too seriously. But, it's a beautiful way to untie the psychological "knob" of Chinese people. Anyway, I'd like to say, "WELL DONE!" My flat mates, one is Australian born Chinese and another one is Philippino born Chinese, were touched by the stunning scenes as well. We are really proud of being Chinese. :)

Truly agree with BBC's analysis.

"Before the Communists took power in 1949, the once-great China suffered the humiliation of occupation by Western powers and Japan. Being able to stage the greatest sporting event on earth goes some way to showing other countries that China can now compete on an equal footing."

That's true. I've never denied it. There is always something complicated behind the fascinating stage. And the price is our heavy history. Whatever the reason is, here we are! And here we go...

GO CHINA GO!

photos by BBC and GettyImages

2 annoying incidents

2008-08-05T15:10:00.001+01:00

Client and Agency (HK version)

2008-08-05T15:09:00.000+01:00

Hologramic fashion

2008-08-05T15:07:00.004+01:00

Got some random thoughts recently. It would be great if I can work it out in reality but the concept of hologram nowadays is quite different from what i really wanna do. Anyway, just some wild thoughts. :p

舉高隻手 - 農夫

2008-08-03T00:28:00.000+01:00

舉高隻手 - 農夫

作曲：DJ Tommy
填詞：農夫
編曲：DJ Tommy．咖啡因公園
監製：DJ Tommy

我我要我要你
我我要我要你

舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜

細細個有人教你有個美德無論你有幾得千祈咪講出嚟
最緊要謙卑隻手咪舉起
所以你碰到愛嘅人你冇問你冇試下伸隻手去拖下佢
你細個發嘅夢當發夢你冇膽豁出去捉緊佢

晚晚話鬱鬱不得志睇死自己乜都失意
條路斜條路窄能走過只有Kenny B

所以你翻緊嗰份工唔係你嘅興趣
身邊嗰個人唔係你最愛嘅伴侶
生到成竇仔女先至識得後悔午夜望回流下兩滴淚水
點解唔伸出去我辦不到
點解唔舉高佢從今以後的起心肝抬起頭仲有

舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜

你咪再顧慮咁多邊位睇小過我
隻手舉高過駛乜驚舉錯

有冇諗過白日夢都可以成真
有冇諗過鍾意嘅人等緊你成親
有冇諗過呢世係你最開心嘅人生
睇你敢唔敢舉高隻手唔好再等
用呢隻手拎住結婚戒指問你鍾意嘅女士佢願唔願意
用呢隻手其中一隻手指對住你嘅波士叫佢咪咁多事
用呢隻手改變世界歷史有人話你無知起碼你肯嘗試
我要用呢隻手寫出我嘅歌詞無論你鍾唔鍾意

一齊嚟伸出去讓他知道
一齊嚟舉高佢從今以後舉高隻手你哋唔駛怕醜

舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜

我兩個繼續唱歌
邊位醜得過我
隻手舉高過駛乜驚舉錯
全人類舉高手好嗎
全人類舉高手好嗎

全人類舉高手好嗎 (舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜)
全人類舉高手好嗎 (舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜)
全人類舉高手好嗎 (舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜)
全人類舉高手好嗎 (舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜
舉高隻手駛乜怕醜舉高隻手駛乜怕醜)

Everchanging

2008-07-31T01:23:00.002+01:00

Like my friend, Gentleman's quote.

"You can't cross the same river twice cause it changes in every second. So as you and me.
Memory is beautiful, right?"

Olympics 2008 Monkey Movie - BBC Sport

2008-07-28T12:26:00.005+01:00

Done by one of my favourite artist Jamie Hewlett (the illustrator of GORILLAZ!!). It's actually a little twist from Jamie & Damon's recent opera "Monkey journey to the West". A fascinating combination of western and Chinese culture. (really fresh!! British doing Chinese opera!)

Olympics 2008

Monkey journey to the West

I can never understand how the national extremists in China perceive non-Chinese exploring Chinese culture. If you read all the comments on YouTube of this video or related debate of the opera, you'll discover how big the anit-west concept is in the extremists ' mind. Why can't they just appreciate the new art produced by westerners? Of course, their work is never like the proper Chinese tradition, but that's the essence!

Where are the extremists when Chinese do western paintings and orchestra? Monkey opera is just a tiny example of thousand stories about Chinese national extremists. (Not to mind you of the uncivilized anti-American, anit-French, anit-Japanese riots ...) Sigh... nationalism can be kind of terrorism if people push it too hard...

Hey people! When you are mad at Big Americanism, think about it yourselves. I don't wanna see it turn to be another Big Chinesim.

Why are British so much funnier than us?

2008-07-23T17:17:00.004+01:00

I got this fw email from my friend living in the State. Couldn't help sharing!!! Seriously it's genius!

Why are British so much funnier than us?

Not sure how real they are but I wouldn't be surprised if they are all real signs. Imagine they are placed in HK... people will sue your ass off!! Why? Because HK people are way too serious. But hey, life is short! Why can't we joke around and relax a little? :) Love those signs.

Recent Update

2008-07-17T16:59:00.008+01:00

Guests from HK :)

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Finished some supporting illustrations for a book. :) I'm just one of the big illustrator pool but I quite enjoyed it. Waiting for publishing heehee... Well, I just re-used the style which I did for a pitch cause I like it and the job has been killed! :p

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I had a haircut last night...Well, don't laugh but I really printed out the samples for the hairdresser... Below is what I wanted. It turned out to be a completely different look....haha... cuz I'm not a model!

I look like MK now.....

Just walked past the door

2008-07-08T00:58:00.012+01:00

This is the second time I've had such feeling in my life.

Some people can never be your friends.
Someone can never be just your friend.

Something, some feeling.... you can never explain.
Someday, you walk past the door of the unclear.
Somehow, things can never be the same.

Somewhat different, somewhat the same...

Someway, someone can never be your one, but simply, can never be you just friend...

(illustration - spirited away)

I know I have already walked past the door and there is no way to go back and open it again. It's never happened. It won't happen. But ironically, it feels like it once happened.

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"There's a Fine, Fine Line"

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

Happy Times

2008-07-01T23:45:00.004+01:00

Ray is leaving for good.... We'll all miss him a lot! What a pure and lovely boy we've got at St Martins.

Rejected designs

2008-07-01T22:49:00.008+01:00

The final product never looks similar to the original idea, does it? Ha... these are some designs I've done and sort of rejected in the end. There's always some branding or strategic concern so it's not surprising to see a different thing when finished. I don't think they are bad tho. :p

I can't share any on-going projects now. Believe me. A lot of interesting things are coming!!! I had to work overtime tonight. Missed Mark's party (where everyone was there!!!)... But I'm quite happy working on the new projects anyway. :D

Client: Calbury
Media: online image (style only)
Cause of death: It was just a quick demo page in 1 day. Nothing serious. And I think it does nothing with its branding at all. Good for a quick fix tho.

Client: Toyota
Media: Website
Cause of death: Unknown. Client liked it. It's just thoroughly changed in the end...

Client: Celebrations
Media: Print ads
Cause of death: Unknown. Production house liked it. Guess the agency changed direction or sth.

Client: BBC3
Media: TV (sting)
Cause of death: Style Not suitable

living in the rain. rain of rage

2008-06-27T15:26:00.011+01:00

Hey it finally comes to this...

I haven't uploaded my blog for ages. Thanks to bloody BT. These are what happened in my recent life.

1.) I spent hours in 2 months over the phone asking BT to fix my telephone line and Broadband in my new flat yet those obsolete still did it wrong and ended up with a ridiculous £122 bill.(Don't worry! It's not my bill at all.) I don't wanna go into details. I don't even wanna recall a thing about this moronic company. They are just like crocoaches being horrific but being able to survive until the world ends; (trust me. I'm the one who reacts the least among my flatmates. Imagine how crappy the situation was. But thank God it's all over now.)
2.) Visa stuff and you-know-what-thing. Pretty exhausting, eh? But I'm very happy to see myself swimming towards the shore of a beautiful island;
3.) I'm working on some funny projects but a bit stacked at the moment AND am sometimes quite ticked off by some people who treat me like their hands... or even a brainless tool; I wasn't born yesterday. Why are all people so controlling?
4.) I've been listening to Linking Park these days. Their old songs. A great trigger for me to project out my discontent. Plus working on a project with an anti-social and rebellious fake character in it which drags me down to a pool of outrages;
5.) have met some weird-dos and got annoyed;

Another thing is, I've decided to go to another church for Sunday service. I'll still join the same fellowship and activities, have the same laughters and stuff. But it's time I left for a right place for my soul. I'm not the type of person flicking around different places and then take, take, take. I'm not leaving the old place anyway. I just need the right place where I can rest my shoulders a little bit. I appreciate some bros' concern. Seriously, I was touched by their love & care. But hey, don't pound your thoughts in my head. I'm not someone you hallucinated. Thanks for preaching. I'm just not one of the villagers. Just don't wanna explain things.

Prolonged suppression in a city where things never done properly makes a mild person to become an outraged grumpy bitch. I'm getting tougher to handle some unreasonable people BUT at the same time, I'm getting ill-tempered and always angry about stuff. I know I need a little bit of fresh air. Yea just put me out of misery. I stand up for myself but I don't wanna be a pathetic jxxk. :p

SO~~~~~~~~~~~~, I am now starting to be a better person. Just get back some cheery positive elements I used to possess. After all, the road ahead is still bright, right? Hahaha.....

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In The End

(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

Belated baby card....

2008-06-04T00:26:00.003+01:00

After 9 months, I finally gave this to Laura.....lol....it's for her baby Casper but obviously he's nearly 1 year old now... This baby card is really late, man...

anyway.... :p I was running out of ideas but isn't it still good to have just a group of weird babies in the picture?? um...

"Poo" Artist

2008-06-02T09:17:00.004+01:00

"Poo" Artist - Springkle Brigade

http://www.sprinklebrigade.com

That's genius!

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Another manga type

Untitled

2008-05-29T23:48:00.002+01:00

More paintings

2008-05-27T23:56:00.002+01:00

Have done 2 more paintings but they don't look good. Not like traditional Chinese paintings. I really need to improve my technique.....:p

Bush-Putin meeting - eating banana...

National treasure

Be Strong, Chinese! (cond')

2008-05-14T16:09:00.011+01:00

I can't stop my running nose and tears when I am reading the news of Sichuan's earthquakes these days...

Please help them, Jesus!

Please be strong, brothers and sisters!!

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Extracted from Ma Tze's diary

I'm heartbroken when I read this...

《孩子快抓緊媽媽的手》
Hold mummy's hand, my child!

～獻給在地震中死去的孩子們～
dedicated to children who died in the earthquake

孩子快抓緊媽媽的手
Hold mummy's hand, my child!

去天堂的路太黑了
The road to heaven is too dark

媽媽怕你碰了頭
Mum fears that you would hit your head

快抓緊媽媽的手
Hurry up! Hold mummy's hand!

讓媽媽陪你走
Mummy will be with you

媽媽怕天堂的路太黑
Mummy worries about the road to heaven getting too dark

我看不見你的手
I can't see your hand

自從倒塌的墻把陽光奪走
Ever since the collapsed walls blocked the sunlight,

我再也看不見你柔情的眸
I haven't seen your gentle sight.

孩子你走吧
Child, you just go!

前面的路再也沒有憂愁
There won't be any worries ahead

沒有讀不完的課本和爸爸的拳頭
no more never-ending textbooks nor daddy's fist

你要記住我和爸爸的摸樣
Please remember Dad's and my face.

來生還要一起走
We'll be together in another life.

媽媽別擔憂
Don't worry, mum!

天堂的路有些擠
The road to heaven is crowded

有很多同學朋友
There are many classmates and friends

我們說不哭
We say, "don't cry."

哪一個人的媽媽都是我們的媽媽
"every mum is our mum"

哪一個孩子都是媽媽的孩子
"Every child is mum's child"

沒有我的日子
The days without me

你把愛給活的孩子吧
Please give your love to other living kids

媽媽你別哭
Don't cry, mum!

淚光照亮不了我們的路
Tears can't light up our road

讓我們自己慢慢地走
Let us go

媽媽
Mum

我會記住你和爸爸的模樣
I will remember you and Dad's face.

記住我們的約定來生一起走
Remember our promise -- we'll be together in another life.

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21 May - Life goes on

It happened nearly 10 days ago, yet my emotion is quite fluctuating. Everyone of us digests every word on the newspaper and listens to every story from the radio since then. For several times, I shivered to open the images on BBC.

China, you've got a new wound on your heavily scarred face. a very deep one...

You must be tired now. But don't sleep! you'll get over it. Please open wide you watery eyes to see your wound for the remembrance of every lovely soul of your kids. How many wars and hazards have you gone through in 5000 years? You didn't even knee down during the cruelest war of Japanese invasion. So why do you cry? Stop mourning from now on and live your life! "Living well and bravely is the best gift to those who died in the quake." It says all.

We are all united this time. But the price is too high...

I heard a funny story on radio. Someone in HK lost temper when people around were talking about the earthquake. He said something like, "Donation?! Huh! You HK people don't even give up your seat for the elderly! Where's your right to talk about helping others? Helping Sichuan?! Get stuffed ..." Also, some people said, "There are millions of people dying from diseases and starvation. Have you ever paid attention to them? Why do people just focus on this earthquake?"

I would say, the above people are all politically correct. But the saying / thought is completely wrong timing. If people want to relieve their heavy emotion from overwhelming reports by saying these, that would be easy to understand. If people really mean it, I would feel sorry for them. Of course, it's our problem if we often ignore the needy and become generous just because the people were killed too suddenly. This is a chance for us to self-evaluate. We, however, draw a conclusion that we need not specially care for the quake-hit people nor feeling sad for them because there are too many people dying slowly in the world anyway, then it's all wrong. Would you just walk past when you see a child getting drown in the river? Would you say, "oh, there are millions of starving kids dying in Mid Africa. why should i just save you one?" The ancient Chinese Confucianity philosopher Mèngzǐ called it 惻忍之心. (Sympathy + Empathy) Other's suffering is a reminder for us to be a better person, to help the surrounding, but it's not an excuse for us not to give a helping hand to someone who needs it immediately. It's not a fair or unfair issue any more.

A true thing is, human beings all follow the rule of nature, i.e. we all have selfish genes, which means British would care about British more than Africans. Americans would care about Americans more than Chinese. Chinese people would care about Chinese more than Burman. However, we should not forget them and many other countries which are being suffered. Oh man... there are likely 78,000 people killed in Burma while another horrific typhoon is coming.....

Be strong, Chinese! Be strong, all the wounded in the world!

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I was unhappy about my job before. got stuck for a long period of time. But when I saw the quake news, I suddenly felt I'm such an ignorant! How tiny and trivial and meaningless my problem is! How can I mourn about something dust-sized when so many people are facing life and death problem outside? It's just way too luxury for us to worry about tiny things. We always think our problem is the biggest and it blocks us to see any other things. When we step back, we'll discover that the world is SO big and our problem is nothing...

The Sichuan people say they have to move on. How can't I live better and happier from now on? Just because life is unexpected like wind, we have to treasure everything we have right now.

My new room

2008-05-12T11:51:00.006+01:00

I've moved to this new place for 2 weeks now. I'm a Shoreditch punk now!!! Yeah! I like the area very much not because it's just 5 mins walk from my office but because it's a playground for London artists and yuppies! It aggregates stylish retails, small art galleries and funky pubs. When I walk up to Angel, I can see the latest graffiti of Banksy. How amazing!

My room is bigger than before. Well, you know I'm broke and don't have much money to decorate. But I bought some cushions and a kiddie bean bag. Looks comfy, right? :) The walls are too white for me. Gonna put some posters or drawings soon!

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Sunbath @ St. James's Park

Shine Cherry shine!!!

Silly chinese painting

2008-05-07T14:21:00.002+01:00

James triggered me to pick up Chinese Painting again. I haven't practiced for at least 15 years and actually I haven't got any proper teaching at all... But hey! Why can't we do it for fun? hehe.... This is a ridiculous one I did in the office today :p

2 more!!

The show must go on

2008-05-06T23:55:00.006+01:00

First of all, THANK YOU SO MUCH (from the bottom of my heart) for all those who care for me! When I got the warmest encouraging messages from friends, I couldn't continue to moan about my work. It's just me always being dissatisfied and frustrated by the job. But now I'm alright. I've gained back my energy! Yay!

When I think back, I feel sorry for my workmates whom I threw temper to cause I was really annoyed by depressing thoughts plus boring jobs in the office. :p (gosh... they didn't know what's going on when I turned my ghost face to them... poor thing...) I know there are a lot of people in my department and other departments helping me, cheering me up and stuff. I just didn't notice.

Anyway, the show must go on! I know what I should do and I have to be patient until the first glimpse of light appears again.

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Well, let me slip into another issue. 2 things happened last week. I took a day-off and went to Heathrow with my Japanese flatmate on Wed. It was a gloomy day, esp. for his girlfriend. Right, Yuki is going back to Tokyo for good. After working hard for a year, he finally decided not to continue his harsh life in London. What a pity... If he has got a work permit, I'm sure his London life should be a lot better. Maddi cried when they parted. SIgh, they have been with each other for 5 years. I mean, it's not like normal 5 years but like facing each other for 24/7 in these 5 years! How can they get used to their new life? She's going back half a year later as well....so, hope things will work out.

I felt weird, too. When I left HK, I missed my friends and family but the feeling wasn't like this time. Because I know I will go back one day. But for those friends I've met in London, it may be the last time I see them once they go back. Um... so weird....

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Another thing was that 2 teenage girls came to stay at my place for the weekend. It's what they call Exeat day. Gosh... boarding schools are full of such kind of strange events! I was rushing for my no-pay freelance pitch at that time and I had to look after 2 kids!! You can imagine how tense I was. Thank God they are quite nice kids, not like those crazy street kids.

It's a long story of how I have become one's guardian. Though it's tiring, sometimes I find it warm to see kids start respecting people, chatting with you in a serious way and learning life issues. Hope they are alright...

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As I mentioned, I did a no-pay pitch for a production house. It's just a storyboard of a new programme sting but I enjoyed it (if they are not using me and then run away). It's a nice chance to explore different illustration style.:)

Comedy

2008-04-22T23:59:00.007+01:00

I can't help watching Mighty Boosh 3 again tonight. I packed up all my stuff getting ready for moving house, except the Boosh DVD. Now you can imagine how crazy I'm for them. I love British TV shows especially comedies. Boosh is an arty & random one. Little Britain is amazing & serious (maybe a little dark?) fun. Also Family Guy, SImpsons... All hilarious!

Mighty Boosh -
Hey the most nonsense lyrics in the world: "I did a shit on your mama. I did a shit on your mama. And you rather liked it. I did a shit on your dad. I did a shit on your dad. And you rather liked it. I did a shit on your shit. I did a shit on your shit...."

Little Britain
Yea but no but yea ...

Well, I re-watched the show just because I got a DVD from amazon last night, the King of Comedy. That's the trigger. It's not a comedy at all. A rather crazy one but classic. I'm curious how the comedians in the past did the shows...

The King of Comedy
Yeah! Robert De Niro and Martin Scorsese again!

I know that's silly... Many friends of mine just wonder why I love comedies so much. But Come on! We need more laughters when we're getting old and washed by bitter moments... right, if only we still think our life is not yet a joke.

p.s.: Of course our greatest HK comedian Stephen Chow is on my list. But he's so different now...

Everyone goes 'round a little empty inside

2008-04-16T09:01:00.002+01:00

I haven't updated my blog for ages. Only 2 reasons - 1. my laptop was dead for weeks; 2. I'm very busy and messy now.

Today I sent the below lyrics to my friend. Not sure if it helps but it made me laugh in frustration and depression. Sometimes life just doesn't look right and it never goes to where you want it to go. Going round and round and round.... we are back to the original crossroad. Perhaps we should allow this moment of being lost, being meaningless in our lives. And maybe someday, somehow, we'll discover that what we really need is just simple. Simple as making a kid smile back to you...

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All lyrics extracted from musical Avenue Q (<= seriously this is genius!)

It sucks to be Me

It sucks to be broke
and unemployed
and turning thirty-three.
It sucks to be me.

Oh, you think your life sucks?

I think so.

Your problems aren't so bad!
I'm kinda pretty
And pretty damn smart.
I like romantic things
Like music and art.
And as you know
I have a gigantic heart
So why don't I have
A boyfriend?
Fuck!
It sucks to be me!

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PURPOSE

PURPOSE,
IT'S THAT LITTLE FLAME
THAT LIGHTS A FIRE
UNDER YOUR ASS.
PURPOSE,
IT KEEPS YOU GOING STRONG
LIKE A CAR WITH A FULL
TANK OF GAS.
EVERYONE ELSE HAS
A PURPOSE
SO WHAT'S MINE?
Oh, look! Here's a penny!
It's from the year I was born!
IT'S A SIGN!
BA-BA-BA-BA
DOO-DOO-DOO-DOO-DOO
I DON'T KNOW HOW I KNOW,
BUT I'M GONNA FIND
MY PURPOSE.
I DON'T KNOW WHERE
I'M GONNA LOOK,
BUT I'M GONNA FIND
MY PURPOSE.
GOTTA FIND OUT,
DON'T WANNA WAIT!
GOT TO MAKE SURE THAT MY
LIFE WILL BE GREAT!
GOTTA FIND MY PURPOSE
BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.

MOVING BOXES AND OTHERS
HE'S GONNA FIND HIS PURPOSE

PRINCETON
I'M GONNA FIND MY PURPOSE

MOVING BOXES AND OTHERS
HE'S GONNA FIND HIS PURPOSE

MOVING BOXES AND OTHERS(Overlapping)
MAYBE MORE...
AT A JOB, OR SMOKING GRASS
POTTERY CLASS
WOULD BE COOL...
YES IT COULD!
SOMETHING GOOD!
YOU'RE GONNA FIND
YOUR PURPOSE...
GOTTA FIND YOUR PURPOSE...
PURPOSE IS A MYSTERY.
GOTTA FIND IT!
YOU'RE GONNA FIND
YOUR PURPOSE
WHOA, WHOA, WHOA...
YOU'RE GONNA FIND.
YOUR PURPOSE
WHOA, WHOA, WHOA...

PRINCETON (Overlapping)
I'M GONNA FIND MY PURPOSE
COULD BE FAR, COULD BE NEAR
COULD TAKE A WEEK,
A MONTH, A YEAR
AT A JOB, OR SMOKING GRASS
MAYBE AT A POTTERY CLASS!
COULD IT BE?
YES IT COULD!
SOMETHING'S COMING,
SOMETHING GOOD!
I'M GONNA FIND MY PURPOSE
I'M GONNA FIND MY PURPOSE
I'M GONNA FIND IT.
WHAT WILL IT BE? WHERE WILL FT BE?
MY PURPOSE IN LIFE IS A MYSTERY
GOTTA FIND MY PURPOSE
GOTTA FIND ME.
I'M GONNA FIND MY PURPOSE!
PURPOSE PURPOSE PURPOSE!
YEAH YEAH!
GOTTA FIND ME.
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For Now

PRINCETON:
Why does everything have to be so hard?

GARY COLEMAN:
Maybe you'll never find your purpose.

CHRISTMAS EVE:
Lots of people don't.

PRINCETON:
But then- I don't know why I'm even alive!

KATE MONSTER:
Well, who does, really?
Everyone's a little bit unsatisfied.

BRIAN:
Everyone goes 'round a little empty inside.

GARY COLEMAN:
Take a breath,
Look around,

BRIAN:
Swallow your pride,

KATE MONSTER:
FOr now...

BRIAN, KATE, GARY, CHRISTMAS EVE:
For now...

NICKY:
Nothing lasts,

ROD:
Life goes on,

NICKY:
Full of surprises.

ROD:
You'll be faced with problems of all shapes and sizes.

CHRISTMAS EVE:
You're going to have to make a few compromises...
For now...

TREKKIE MONSTER:
For now...

ALL:
But only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now!

LUCY:
For now we're healthy.

BRIAN:
For now we're employed.

BAD IDEA BEARS:
For now we're happy...

KATE MONSTER:
If not overjoyed.

PRINCETON:
And we'll accept the things we cannot avoid, for now...

GARY COLEMAN:
For now...

TREKKIE MONSTER:
For now...

KATE MONSTER:
For now...

ALL:
But only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now!

Only for now!
(For now there's life!)
Only for now!
(For now there's love!)
Only for now!
(For now there's work!)
For now there's happiness!
But only for now!
(For now discomfort!)
Only for now!
(For now there's friendship!)
Only for now (For now!)
Only for now!

Only for now! (Sex!)
Is only for now! (Your hair!)
Is only for now! (George Bush!)
Is only for now!

Don't stress,
Relax,
Let life roll off your backs
Except for death and paying taxes,
Everything in life is only for now!

NICKY:
Each time you smile...

ALL:
...Only for now

KATE MONSTER:
It'll only last a while.

ALL:
...Only for now

PRINCETON:
Life may be scary...

ALL:
...Only for now
But it's only temporary

Ba-dum ba-dum
Ba-dum ba-dum
Ba dum ba-dum
Ba-da da da da
ba-da da-da da da-da
Ba-dum ba-da, ba-dum ba-da
ohhhh-

PRINCETON:
Everything in life is only for now.
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I laughed so much when I saw the musical. Simply because it says so true, so harsh. Simply because life sucks sometimes. I don't think everything is just for now. But I do think we must at least enjoy everything for now. Otherwise, 40 years flies by and we'll only discover how many things we've lost and how much time we've wasted. CHEER UP CHEER UP!!!! XD

Back to life!!!

2008-03-31T00:46:00.000+01:00

Hooray!!!! I've got my laptop back! I'm alive online again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Les Arcs

2008-03-10T09:52:00.003Z

Date: 1 - 8 March
Venue: Les Arcs, France
Content: Snowboarding
Participants: Esti, Daniel, Jiska, Fraser, Ben, Katharina, Ryan, Jenz & friends, Cherry.

Alpes

Amazing view from our window.

My Diary

Update

2008-02-21T00:29:00.003Z

Interesting - i've become a 14-year-old girl's guardian suddenly. Lots of jokes and fun at home. :)

Utterly wrathful - i can do crap works well but it doesn't mean that i deserve those craps. I've been considerate for so long. Stop treating me like a garage, for FXXK sake! I WILL DEFINITELY QUIT! ):( 忍得倒食篤屎... I've eaten a million tones of shits really!

Valentine's

2008-02-15T00:53:00.004Z

Funny. I remember i bought a bunch of flowers and booked a table.... not for me but for someone and someone's girlfriend 2 years ago. This year, I was asked by another guy to buy a box of chocolate and send it to his girl. I'm always the messenger. Hey, I must be Cupid. LOL...

I wasn't lonely at all. At least I was "dating" with 30 other pairs of couples in the theatre watching "No Country for Old Men". Strange choice on Valentine's I know but I don't deny that was a good choice. A big hand to Coen Brothers again! Guess I have to watch it again some time later as I didn't a hundred percent get it.

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Here you are a hilarious conversation.

female colleague: If you love her, you don't have to buy any presents or treat her better just on Valentine's Day. You can do it every day.
male colleague: yea... I know. Everyone knows it. But if I don't, it's like a kid watching all other kids getting presents in X'mas and then his parent say, "No. you are not gonna get any gifts but I still love you." It's terrible.

I laughed out loud in heart... Poor guys.....

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Thanks for your text. Right, how lovely it is!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!!! {@}->--

Juno

2008-02-13T10:28:00.002Z

Anyone Else But You

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam I'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du
But you

All I Want Is You

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, let the cold winds blow

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

P.S. I Love You

2008-02-10T01:02:00.000Z

I went for a movie with Wei, Cindy, Fiona and Vic today. It's a very girlie group seeing a very girlie film. Apparently all the audience were girls and all of us cried like hell. LOL... a sad but not really sad love story. Life goes on. We move on. That's it.

I'm quite excited about friends around me busy doing or planning their "stuff" for Valentine's. It's just a commercial day for advertisers and businessmen I know. (and for all those unrealistic romantic girls) However, I'm touched indeed when I see how hard they have done for their lovers. Some of them are not even in a relationship but they just want to make their dream girls to be happy. Oh man... best wishes!! I see their heart. It's not a ritual. It's not a festival. It's not for something which ought to be there. It's just all for a good soul to give. Thank God we can love.

Apocalypto (2006)

2008-02-09T01:08:00.000Z

Just watched Mel Gibson's Apocalypto. It's FANTASTIC!!!!! Don't wanna write anything about this film (since I'm way too sleepy) but hey! Just watch it yourself!!! I'm sure it's even more amazing in cinema. I missed it last year but thank amazon.com for bringing it back. Kaka... Very nice scenery, make-up, costume, actors, script and of course the filming! For a long moment, my head was stuffed with the mystery of Maya.

A time for us to think about our civilization. Right, I know it's thoroughly side-tracked. Anyway... We call it Mayan civilization at that time but what determines a group of human beings undergoing civilization? Their city was well-constructed yet their way of thinking was brutal in modern standard. Same as this century, the world is changing, or, in our terms, "improving". It's just that we, human beings, are not. Civilization is just a term to describe a process of being more discreet to hide our evilness; a set of norms to balance different parties; and a cover for us to take advantage from the Earth.

Oh wait! I remember that I still keep Jostein Gaarder's philosophical fiction "Maya" at home. At my real home .... and I just flipped over several chapters. It's not about Maya anyway. I didn't finish it because it's boring compared with Sophie's World. Ah... Wanna finish it now...

BTW, I really think the leading actor Rudy Youngblood looks like Matt (<= i'm sure he thinks he looks like Lewis Hamilton more though I don't actually agree.....). LOL... Funny...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2008-02-07T22:31:00.000Z

All the best in the Year of the RAT!!! XD

Website revamped!

2008-02-01T16:57:00.000Z

Woohoo!!! This is my new website. I know... they are only old materials with a new interface. Anyway, simple and tidy! keekee... Got a crazy profile as well.

http://www.cherryleong.co.uk/

Thank Mark for the tips!

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Like this quote.

"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation."
~ Oscar Wilde

The road ahead

2008-01-31T22:23:00.000Z

"If you get used to that kind of life - of never having anything you want - then you stop knowing what it is you want."

- said by Kumiko; extracted from "The Wind-up Bird Chronicle" by Murakami.

It's always difficult to make people understand why and how I've been feeling aimless since 2007. This line says all. Those haven't been lost won't understand why I got into this psychological spiral and why it means so much to me that I can hardly get out of the trap. "Why do you stay? Why don't you get another opportunity? Why are you so unhappy but doing nothing to change? Why? Why? Why..." To a collapsed person, these blames just do nothing but deepen the wound.

Well, the above quote is not entirely true in my case. I do have something I want. But ... I share the logic and emotion. It's like a conditioning experiment. Rubbish me used a psychology test "conditional-electric-shock-to-a-dog" as a metaphor to describe my mental status a few months ago, which was way down-to-earth. I can't help laughing when I read back my diary. See how beautiful Murakami described the ambiguity? That's the difference between an illiterate and a novelist.

Thank God my helplessness in the past has become my incentive to change. I've spent some time to equip myself (hey, at least I needed some time to stand up again and re-construct myself, right?) and now, I'm strengthened. I once fisted my "wants" too tight that finally broke myself into pieces. Now I've learned how to be peaceful and let Him do the rest. Amen. :)

Eastwind

2008-01-29T21:36:00.000Z

"Everything is ready except East wind!" Back to life tomorrow! XD

Heehee...right! After millions of obstacles and daily craps blocking my road these weeks, I've got all things ready apart from the final cut of my showreel. May the new born, aggressive and energetic me be revealed! An intensive 100m running is going to start! I'm on my mark, get set....

Meg's story 3

2008-01-28T23:59:00.000Z

I have decided not to hang out with Meg for a while. She is sweet but, most of the time, her hysteria pisses me off. Weird... She has not called me these days either. Such an invisible consent. Her image seems to be getting vague and washed out like a sand drawing. It does not mean I care no more but you know, sometimes you just discover that a close person may not be as close as you have imagined...

I like walking along Thames. If it is not blistering cold, I would walk from Liverpool Street back to my place after work which only takes 40 mins. My favourite part is London Bridge. I can stand still on the bridge enjoying the evening breeze, listening to shiny shoes and high heels hitting the ground and feeling a moment of care-free existence. Twinkling stars are up above my head if I am lucky enough. Um... such an intoxicating picture! My soul as light as a piece of 5 gram sheet started to float in the midst of the space. I am no one in the world. I am just a watcher of this dimension. I am nothing ...

"Beautiful." I woke up by a deep unfamiliar voice. A 6-feet tall man rested his arms on the bench right next to me.

I felt astonished and embarrassed, "Thank you."

"This is the most beautiful scene in London. I don't remember how many hundred times I have seen the sunset here."

Ha-ha!!!! great! He was talking about the scene!!! That was so not cool... "You can hardly see sunset after work in the winter, can you?" Right. I was shifting the dialogue focus.

"No. Sunrise maybe," he did not even turn his head to me. How rude...

"You joking? I don't believe that Londoners have to work 24/7!" Apparently, I tried to be critical to cover my silly misunderstanding and embarrassment before.

"Nor do I. But it really is."

We sighed at the same time. Perhaps both of us did not know how to carry on our weird conversation.

"Do you always walk past the bridge? I mean kind of every day after work?" said he.

"Not too often. But if I have time and the weather is not too bad..." I had not even completed my sentence, "Okay. Hope I'll see you again then. Same time, as place, whatever date." he made a sharp cut and phew....................!!

"Alright. See you when I see you!" His shadow stretched longer and longer under a glimpse of moonlight. He was getting smaller until the image was out of my sight.

Meg's story 2

2008-01-27T22:40:00.000Z

"Yes, the capacity here is much larger and the market seems to accept, or to be accurate, to appreciate different styles, methods of running a business, cultures and even techniques. Both commercial and arty things are in their blossom..." said Kwai.

Meg smiled, nodding her head unconsciously. Or maybe soullessly...

"You ok?" Cherry asked. (Oh yea... Cherry the narrator. I knew she was not listening.)

She smiled again.

Of course, I understood what was happening. Apparently, she did not pay attention to Kwai's explanation of the UK market or business opportunities. It's him. She was thinking of him. She was supposed to spend more time with him but we dragged her in our reunion. I saw it. I saw how reluctant she was when she said goodbye to him. One more hour with a friend probably means nothing to most of us. But obviously it means the world to this little shy, introverted girl. She never speaks it out and he never knows it.

"Did I disappoint him when I said I had to go?" Oh gosh... she asked the oddest question in the most inappropriate time - in the middle of our friends' serious conversation...

"Well... he flattened his eyes but I don't think it matters much. Take it easy, baby. You are with us now and we haven't seen Kwai and Amy for ages." honestly I was a bit annoyed. But, I know she cares about him too much. Every word, every movement, the position of his hands, the colour of his top, etc. I am damn sure she has a remarkable memory of this man's everything and subjectively interprets the meaning of it whenever she meets him AND develops her own story... Meg is a romantic, imaginative girl but at the same time, quite pessimistic in relationship.

"Come on! You are not even boyfriend and girlfriend!" Oops! I was too straight-forward. Damn! I should not have said it.

She nodded again.

After our yummy Japanese supper, we walked our friends home, sharing a lot of funny thoughts.

"So he doesn't really care how long we are spending with each other, does he?"

"OH-MEG!!! Not again..." I felt fainted.

Meg's story 1

2008-01-26T01:00:00.000Z

Eventually....... Murakami

This week has been crazily busy. And bloody hell I had to deal with some interpersonal problems in such a hell-like period!!! Tiring enough but it was finally kind of sorted. (oh man! I did not lie and I hate someone saying I lied. Whatever. Couldn't care less... Can all of us just be a little bit maturer??)

Guess what? I bought Haruki Murakami's "The Wind-up Bird Chronicle"!! An illiterate person like me never likes novels but believe me, I did buy it. I was struggling to choose from "Affiliations" and Murakami's books in Borders. Normally I would pick a cult one with funny theories and dark humour like the former option. But I hoped I would improve my literature soul, therefore I went for this famous contemporary novel. See how long I can stand........ :p

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Meg's story

Meg was still in her world. Deeply in her world.

He, however, suddenly leaned forward speaking gently to her with his shoulders touching hers. Time stopped. Meg understood that her comfort zone is bigger than anybody else but in these few seconds, she truly wanted to stay there forever. Not even a 1-inch move. Didn't she dare to step back? Or did she just not want to move? It was so close. Too close that she could felt his breath and his body heat. Meg was standing still, dragging this touch into her world... and keep it. Just tried to store it in a place where all those moments she cherishes won't fade...

She wanted to step forward but her another self pulled her back. "You may be hurting him," here comes the only reminding line in her head. Meg then zipped up her mouth and decided to keep it in her heart. An unspeakable secret...

"Is it really a secret?" she asked herself. No. Perhaps he does not really care. But it's for his own good anyway.

"Maybe, one day."

Then she turned around with smiley face, "Let's go!". Everything went back to its right place.

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This was my best company in this hell-like week!

Se7en - Hikari

Gosh... Se7en is so ~~~~~~~~~~~ talented and cute!!! The last few seconds is killing me!! XD

靜夜無題

2008-01-20T23:45:00.000Z

仰天漆黑無崖，閉眼聽寒風觸動，刺骨輕拂，
若即若離，患得患失交感，星空彷如千百涙眼閃爍，一歎
心有千斤，去向未明，天籟卻如億萬塵石腦中騷動，再歎
敢作而不敢冀，敢為而不敢望，甚至於敢愛而不敢宣
只因臨兵一夕，如弓在弦，懷後顧者，倍感茫然
唯盼在上之手，作其腳前之燈，路上之光
使其心悅誠服，行走於大道上，而非虛妄之執著中。

忽覺夜靜，平安泰然始於釋懷, 本於交托而已 ......

Urban Safari (finished!)

2008-01-14T18:26:00.001Z

Yeeeho!!!!!! I finally finished my short film! It took ages, man! Enjoy!!

Olympics 08' Beijing

2008-01-09T13:53:00.000Z

Love this ad.

by psygo

http://www.glossyinc.com/psyop/Together320.mov

Letter

2008-01-05T23:13:00.000Z

I keep reading Mark's letter again and again, feeling meaningful. and peaceful.

"大事小事看担當
順境逆境看襟度
臨喜臨怒看涵養
群行群業看識見
有作用者定自不凡"

And also a good line from the book given by Pauline;

"有些事現在不做,一輩子也不會做了“

Trust me. I remember these.

A scary funny day

2008-01-05T15:15:00.000Z

I had a wonderful time in HK and finally went back to London yesterday. There are a lot to share. Really. I've gone through a complicated and emotional journey. Missing my fmaily and friends and everything in HK so much!!!!!!! But before I jot down anything about my trip, I should write down yesterday's incident... such a ridiculous slapstick.....

Here you are the story.

Yesterday was the funniest.... when i came to the immigration officer at Gatwick airport in early morning, she asked,

"Have you ever registered with the police?"

I said, "no."

"Why not?"

"Because I'm not required to."

"But it says ""register at once with the police" here on your Leave to Remain in passport."

"... But I confirmed it I don't need to."

"... Okay. But I think you'd better check at the nearest police station again."

I left the counter. On the way home, I was thinking about it seriously. I asked my college staff about the registration 2 years ago when I first came to London. They checked it for me and confirmed that I did not need to do so. So what I got was, if I hold the same passport, I don't have to register with the police. (Apparently some overseas visitors have to register with the police. like chinese, indians, etc. Yea... there is always a group of minority people who have to queue up for hours when entering this country at the immigration (or even have a quick body check at the counter), registering with the police, being questioned for more than 15 mins when going back to the country after travel (with starry eyes on them), etc. Maybe it's just another regulation against non-EU people... and a method to earn 34 pounds from each immigrant.) Well, why don't they post a notice saying, "this group of people and dogs please stand back. you will be served (or threathened) in a long while" ?

i thought, i still had a whole day off. There's no harm to check with the police. Then i went.

There were millions of ppl lining up for registration. anyway, i queued up. The officer said,

"You must have the work permit with you in order to do the registration"

To be honest, i didn't even know what it looks like .... i just got the "leave to remain" on my passport

i said, "um... ok, can i send it back later?"

he said," um.... u could sort it out on next wed"

"oh wait!!!!!"

"You got ur work permit in 2006!!!!!!!!!! it's over a year now!!!it's supposed to be done within 7 days after obtaining the work permit. You can't wait until next week.You MUST sort it our by today. Now i warn you, if u carry this passport and are stopped by the police, u will be charged for illegal worker and the punishment can be up to 5000 pounds. You will be also put in prison"

"Smoking in cinema can be put in prison, too...", I thought. But it goes without saying that I was a bit threathened. I clearly understood they have the right to expel me from the UK so I'd better behave in a sorry and humble way. Anyway, I should fix it yesterday because they kept my record and photo. I called my company to fax the work permit but they don't have it. They then called the agency to search for it....It was a big mess and the whole world was in a horror....esp. when they knew i was in the police station. Thank Jan so much for helping me a lot. I felt sorry for her....as I forgot to mention that I was not arrested but I just went for registration.......:p Meanwhile, i rushed back home to bring all related documents.

Then i queued up again. Another officer was dealing with the afternoon cases. She asked for my work permit. and i gave her a letter given by the home office. I said, "that's the permit" (tho i'm not so sure...)

she said, "ah.......ok then"

After 2 hours, all things were sorted...... (gosh... 2 hours! I spent half day here in the police station! What's wrong with being a foreigner?? Okay... this time I admit that it's my misunderstanding....) Another funny thing was, i chatted with an officer when i was waiting for Jan 's call. i explained the whole story...I didn't realize that i had to reg with the police after changing from student visa to work permit tho there's a caption saying "reg with the police" in my passort...blah blah blah...

he said to me,

"when you enter a building like this, NEVER say, ""i thought i did not have to ...."" because it means you did not pay attention to it. Ok, listen carefully. To your best undersatnding and knowledge, did u know that u need to register with the police?"

i said, "no."

He said, "remember that."

I started to understand the word game and thanked this nice officer a lot. This is very clever without hiding or twisting the truth. Then i talked to another officer like this during interview. All sorted!

I got a grade1 warning this time but thank God, I'm safe now!!!!

LOL...... I can't believe that I was nearly kicked out from the country!! chigun...

Social ethics

2007-12-11T21:48:00.000Z

Mark Chan did an incredible job in fellowship on previous Sunday, initiating social ethics discussion by introducing both medical and religious viewpoints. These topics, abortion and cloning, are obviously not new ones. I, however, only discuss it with peers from sociological and christian angle instead of science. I mean, a detailed scientific explanation. Not just stuffing your head with some data like the possibility of how errors or unexpected mutation could be made throughout the process. I was impressed. I had longed for similar discussion (not only social ethics but also christianity, philosophy, etc.) for ages but honestly I can hardly find it in this church.

I feel frustrated sometimes because a few people here just don't show any stance or draw an conclusion in debates. They do have their stance but they are not willing to admit it or speak it out as having a firm and clear point may be considered as "conventional", "closed minded" and "stubborn". As a result, they often spend an awful lot of time on their argument but at the end come up with a conclusion of "it-can-be-anything". To me, a constructive debate needs our honest reasoning and sharing. Otherwise, all things will be mere tautology, even though you throw tones of knowledge brought by other people. The world is full of grey area, however, sometimes it just cannot be anything... I'm glad our new generation make perfect sense of discussion.

Mark guided us to this topic because he studies bio-tech in Imperical at the moment. And we have 1 medicine student from UCL and 1 pharmacy student from School of Pharmacy amongst us which brought out some chemical reaction. Haha.... great. If each of us from different fields teaches something about what we are specialised, that would be interesting. Maybe I could talk about Art & homosexuality next time. LOL...

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Part 1

Let's slip into an "old-fashioned" issue, abortion. Most of us think that it's not right to have it (with an assumption that all human beings are equal and no one has any chance to take another one's life) and it must be the last resort. In Roman Catholics, under no circumstances can abortion be acceptable. It's intentional termination of life. And in most protestant churches, Anglican, Methodist, evangelical, etc. only accept abortion in exceptional cases like pregnancy after rape or dangerous pregnancy leading to potential death of the mother or the child. But when it comes to you (accidentally, in most cases, unprepared sex), people would easily jump to financial concern, career concern, other people's perception or mere personal preference to determine one's life. If they could take a look of how doctors do this "operation" before making a decision, would they take this issue more seriously? This clip is rather old but it reveals the truth of abortion. When killing by injection cannot be applied after the embryo has developed to a certain level, a very brutal method is used.

Ultrasound imaging of a 12 week, unborn child

Process :
1. In the placenta, the sack is disrupted and the fluid surrounding the child is drained off by a suction tip, which is a lethal instrument ;
2. The child's heart rate has speeded up dramatically (in the video, we can see the child's wide mouth open in a silent scream for it is threatened eminently with extinction);
3. The body is being torn systematically from the head which the fragments will be transmitted out of the mother's body in high speed;
4. The head of the child, which is too big to be drained off, tends to float freely in the uterus. It is then locked on by the polyp forceps and pulled down towards the cervix after being completely broken into pieces.

The remaining are simply the shards, the remaining fragments, the pieces of tissue that document that there once was a living, defenseless, a tiny human being...

Before watching the video, I naively imagined that the abortion process would be something simpler than killing a chicken. I can't believe that such a tiny innocent life can be brutally torn apart, broken into pieces inside mother's uterus and totally drained off. It absolutely knew what was going on before being murdered. It screamed and moved around vigurously to avoid the suction tip. We won't even kill an ant like this, will we? Horrible man....

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Part 2
From Cloning to Utilitarianism - Embryonic stem cell Vs Adult stem cell (TBC)

Bath photos

2007-12-11T01:12:00.000Z

You could easily imagine how I felt in this trip by looking at what I took.......

My shadow on a comfy lawn...

Assembly rooms

Blue sky and green land

In the street...

Roman Bath - the origin and history of this town

Lovely town in early morning

Fruits?

X'mas Market

FW message + "PAUSE" + "Phaic Tan"

2007-12-08T12:20:00.000Z

AH.....so true, so touching....

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind. When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it. When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "

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Got a nice note from Gwen a while ago. We all need it.

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I finished the book "A Spot of Bother" finally and have started reading this. This is genius!!!!!!

The most hilarious book in the world!!!!

Bath

2007-12-07T16:22:00.000Z

Date: 2 Dec - 4 Dec 07
Venue: Bath
Participant: travel alone yay!

Eventually I did it. I had thought about having a short trip alone for ages. Hey, no.... Not because I'm dereistic. It's just an experience that you've never had with pals. To see things deeper, to take care of yourself, and to enjoy the lonliness. Why don't I go further then? Err..... who on earth doesn't know that I have no sense of direction and I only know 2 languages??

This time I needed it. I needed this holiday to restructure my life. To be honest, I didn't expect that I could come up with a stunning solution to wash away all my worries and weariness. I had had a brief plan of to-do things. I just wanted a petrol station for me to stop by and face myself, feel my needs and juice me up. Well, 2008 is coming anyway... I planned to do it on my birthday but after a short while of struggle, I chose the week after because -- 1. I wanted to finish a job at work first; 2. I didn't want everyone to worry about me, as they are all too nice to think, "one must be in great trouble if he avoids seeing friends on his big day". They are right. I had great times on my day which was unexpected. Now I'd accomplish my plan...

more pics to come!:)

Damn! I've caught a cold again! Jeeeeeeeeeezzzzzz! I've got a flu jab already!!! Why me again?? Why am I ill on every period!! Every single time, baby! To hell with women's troubles!!!!! @#$%^&*^$%%#$#%..................

Idiotic video

2007-12-01T14:53:00.000Z

What a hilarious show for the 40th anniversary of TVB!! I was laughing to death....seriously and truly laughing to death when I watched 阮兆祥 personating Korean pop singer, Rain!! How could he tape his eyes making them look like Rain's crab eyes!!! He's absolutely gone insane!! CHISEEN!!!!!!!

TVB台慶 - 熱爆巨星演唱會 (李思捷阮兆祥王祖藍)

information provided by Facebook group "一日一爛gag, I am not a plastic bag".